2026 Blogs

Welcome to my blog. i will be talking about random stuff.

Warzone

I started dreaming of leaving my country because this is not suitable anymore As much as i love the city that i lived in my whole life, i noticed that it had changed a lot. These past two years were insufferable. You be living your life and trying to enjoy your days but the weight of reality crushes you when you get remembered by whom you live with in this corrupted society. I may have a problem with my mind because i keep forgetting reality and live in the ambitious life I have created in my mind. However when you wake by an unpleasant incident, you find your self in front of someone who see every right to to take something from you for whatever cost and whatever thing he can get, you start to think about security and how much your country lacks it. Life had changed and became a warzone and everyday is like a battle to survive. I`m not asking for much, i am simply looking for some calmness and peace. I literally want to stop feeling afraid whenever i am walking down the street to get home because i can be robbed at anytime by any person. Why do i need to feel guilty because i have money on me? (theoretically have money because i really don`t have), and what have i done to find myself in a combat for no reason at all? What if i cant fight ? What if i don`t want to fight ? Aren`t we supposed to had achieved civility ?
After thinking for a while i had come to two conclusions
STUPID MENTALITY: This new generation that have no ethical behavior and their stupid excuse to do criminal actions is that they are the victims. They believe that its right to steal and assault people because rich people can still get more money another day. The miss conception here is that they are not targeting the rich and even if they do they have no right to steal money. And let`s not forget the gang mentality that many stupid people live by.
LOOKS: People do stuff based on looks, you have no right to look rich or be the person you want to be or dress however you want. You either dress like them or you`re their prey for dinner. The problem with me is that i dress vintage or simple and people cant tell the difference between being rich and looking fine. I literally be having no penny on me and thrift shop my outfits, but because you are white and wears a denim jacket you get classified as a rich boy. By that meaning you have an obligation to donate to the claimed poor people that eventually are dressed better than you and be spending hell tons of money on drugs everyday. Who is the poor guy in the story ? What ever happens i wont be nor willing to be looking and dressing like them.

D&D

I never thought i`ll be interested in such a game until i tried it. It started when my class mates said they are starting a campaign so i thought about and gave it a shot. I don't regret it at all. It`s so complicated but i had so much fun. The quality time i had with my friends is really amazing and it made us close even though we wasn`t that close before.

The next session will be the last but we really wish to continue.

I always saw role-play and acting as things out of my comfort zone and far from doing, but with the push of our DM i started feeling comfortable, also choosing my character persona as much similar as mine made it easier.

First i played as a fighter shadar-kai but due to a boss fight and the critical situation we were in my character died. So i made a new character and i changed the things that bothered me and made an half-orc paladin and named him SHARR and now i can be the front liner i wanted to be.

The place we go to have our sessions is wonderful. Its a theater club where we find people that have no fear from expressing themselves. They are so inspiring to me and i loved the environment so much but it made me reflect on my fear of stages and how i cant feel free to act. I may try to change it or i may not.

The last session started late, so while we waited we did everything: we performed, song, drew and watched a stand up. I gathered the digital drawings we made and i wanted to share them in my website. They took turns to draw the present members (4 of 6 members) and everyone made up his own style (i didnt draw cz i dont know how to)

Being an artist Part-time job

what i mean with that is everyone should pick a creative hobby for themselves and have fun with it with no intention of getting money out of it
I agree with those who say that internet (especially TikTok) has killed hobbies and now its all about spending the most amount of money or competing to be the best which makes the new people interested in this hobby scared to try and miss the important part: Having fun and escape the daily life stress